Sometimes I wonder if my whole life will pass by this way: me waiting in the shadows, waiting for something to happen. Waiting for someone else to make it happen. Something new or different or crazy and amazing. I‘ve been there for so long, letting everyone else figure it out for me, floating along without much direction or conscious thought. Reacting.
— Sarah Ockler
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
10:59 PM
i dont think i can ever change.


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Tuesday, September 6, 2016
12:20 AM
It's 12.12am and I'm still awake. I have work tomorrow and my skin has been acting up lately so I really need to sleep.... But I'm still up cuz I'm worrying.

Tomorrow I have work, and after work there will be a dinner close by as one of my co workers is leaving. I am nervous because I'm not sure if the person I'm closing with will be going as well... And if not then I will have to walk there myself. I am not too familiar with the place I work at... So maybe during lunch time I'll have to work out where it is exactly.

But the main problem is whether I will be able to easily get to my car after the dinner. I park in the shopping centre and usually I have to walk all the way to the other side to get to the car park... Usually after 6pm they start putting up the barriers across certain sections so I can't go across. 

I am very worried about this problem that on Saturday I even asked the customer service desk. She told me how, and siad that on level one I can just walk through. I confirmed with her that there were no barriers.. But to be honest I don't believe her! Last time when I went upstairs there were barriers!! Oh well I really hope there aren't any this time :-) pls pls pls make life simple..

Anyway as you can see I'm one of those people who worry over nothing. I started this new drama called "Age of Youth" and there's this timid girl who is just like me LOL

Having to repeat questions in her head before asking them. And preparing conversations in her head LOL Fml I feel so pathetic sometimes but I guess that's just how i am.

This is why I usually don't agree to go to work things - Eugh why did I do this so myself!!!
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