Life is getting back into its routine. Working, then playing, then working, then playing, then working. I can't imagine how some people like David and Kathy can survive without rest... socialising and playing with friends also takes a lot of energy even though it's fun. I'm glad I have my Monday's off so that I can recharge.. I like resting.
David doesn't like when things get routine - funny because all he says is 1 or 2, 1 or 2 all day. He doesn't like me being too comfortable either. I don't think he likes me working here either, he wants me to aim higher, do more, be better. I'm scared.
I'm always scared, and happy with small achievements. I have booked a driving lesson with an instructor on the 20th, and also for my test which will be early next month. I hope that I can get my license because I am now 22, and it's embarrassing that I can't drive. I hate when people judge me for not doing things, or other things.. I can see it in their gaze and the way they ask, it makes me feel shit, but I guess I bring it on to myself.
I still have so many things to do, but as usual procrastinating.
I worked up 5 hours sleep - I know it doesn't sound like too little but I am tired on even 10 hours sleep LOL I started at 9 and worked until 5. We were understaffed because one of the employees was sick, but thank god they managed to get someone else in. We were still rushing around. I felt pretty shit after a particular incident. I let things get to me really easily, like if I feel like I have made a bad decision I will feel very.. down.
We were all running around all day - doing one thing after another. At 1.30-2pm, 2 of the girls left, and we were left with 3. We somehow managed.. but M and I got out 20minutes after work.. because someone decided to come in at 5.05PM.. DO U NOT SEE THE CLOSED SIGN? Seriously.. I thought she was just picking up contact lenses but turned out she wanted to order. Sigh.
I had to wait 30minutes for my bus to come, but decided to just head to the city to meet Yinnie. I was done with life and work and everything else. I just wanted to hang out and do nothing. Turns out the train line was fucked and I ended up taking a train then a replacement bus then another train. I could have just gone home. When I met with Yinnie in the city she seemed exhausted having worked from 9-6.30. Her bag was so heavy with her laptop so we just headed home. We stopped by Maccas on the way home and I was so fat I got a small Big Mac meal and 6 nuggets all for myself LOL
Fast food makes me feel so shit after though. I feel oily and gross.. and fat... it's just.. eugh. Oh well, I guess once in a while is not bad.
I went to the Melbourne Food and Wine Festival - River Graze with Michael, Nelson and David yesterday. It was just a lot of different things set around the Yarra River. It was expensive, but good to experience. I took my camera and tried to take some nice photos - I took some okay ones, and posted them on instagram. I still have a few pictures to post. I want to be better at photography.. I want to be better at drawing, water colors, and everything. I want to be better.
I want to stop putting things off, but I can't.
We didn't even have dinner because we had been eating the whole afternoon. We went to Michael's house and played this game on his computer, it was fun.. It was Jack Box Party pack which has many different games, they are similar to the game "Psych" where you have to 'find the right answer'. It's hard to explain the rules without playing but I had lots of fun XD
Hardly did anything today. This morning I didn't see the fried rice in the pan that my mum had made, so I just had avocado on toast. When I make it it tastes so bad compared to when Yinnie makes it LOL who knew that even that could be hard.
I guess cooking isn't really for me.. is anything? LOL I feel sorry for David if we get married.. because he'll probably get food poisoning every night HAHAHA I felt overwhelmed with the things I needed to do. My room was a complete mess when I woke up - making me feel very uncomfortable. So I ate breakfast, cleaned my room a bit, folded the clothes.
I applied for a job and then texted the driving instructor to see if he could fit me in before my test. I need a lot more practise I think, I hope I pass the test. Anyway, even texting him is a lot of energy so I decided to relax after that. That was like 11AM.
It's 5PM now and I'm still relaxing.. I have no idea what I have been doing LOL