Sometimes I wonder if my whole life will pass by this way: me waiting in the shadows, waiting for something to happen. Waiting for someone else to make it happen. Something new or different or crazy and amazing. I‘ve been there for so long, letting everyone else figure it out for me, floating along without much direction or conscious thought. Reacting.
— Sarah Ockler
Monday, May 25, 2015
3:53 PM
Apart from having graduated myself, in the last 2 weeks I have been attending the graduations of a few of my friends. It feels somewhat surreal that it is now really all over, and that I will not have to go to school again. I feel happy about it because I'm lazy, but also sad, because I am lazy.

I have obviously also been working a lot, and today I actually have a work meeting. Although it is my day off I will have to travel all the way to work at 6PM because I missed the last meeting. I am really tired. Work has been pretty good. It's been pretty stable and these days I feel like I'm getting better at MF dispensing. Of course I still need a lot of assistance but my measurements have been better which has made me feel better.

When I get home from work usually I fully just turn into a blob of laziness. Mother makes my dinner and washes the dishes, she also bought me a hot water bottle a few days ago, so now my bed is nice and warm (especially my feet!) when I go to sleep.

As you all know, I am a Korean drama fanatic. I am currently watching 5 different dramas, and there are a few that I started but have also given up on because they are a bit boring. I'm watching (in no particular order):
  • Ex-Girlfriend Club
    • The first few episodes were a little slow, but after ep 4 it started getting SO GOOD. It's seriously so funny, and the background music makes it even more funny hahahaha. I definitely want my mum to watch it as well, so if it comes out dubbed I might buy it for her!
    • Would recommend to watch!!
  • School 2015
    • This is pretty much a drama about 2 guys fighting for one girl (who pretends to be her twin sister). I feel like it's for teenagers because it's set in a high school, but whatever... I like these cliche 2 guys fighting over 1 girl stories HAHAHAHA There also seems like there's a lot going on in this drama, and there's a lot of mystery and suspense so it's held my attention since the first episode.
    • The OST is also so addictive!
    • Would recommend to watch!!
  • The Producers
    • First two episodes were a bit boring, there are a lot of cameos from famous actors, actresses and even idols. The cast is seriously awesome, and of course I love Gong Hyo Jin so it's a given that I am watching this. Only 4 episodes are out so far, but I'm curious to see what will happen in the next episodes!
  • Orange Marmalade
    • This is a drama adaptation of a popular webtoon... except they really fucked it up! I am extremely disappointed with how they have changed the story altogether and it DOESN'T EVEN MAKE SENSE. I am considering dropping this drama because it is too hard to watch. Not to mention the actor for the main guy who is supposed to be drop dead gorgeous is fucking ugly!!!! Jonghyun (CNBLUE) is the second lead, but he hardly has any parts in the drama so far.. so unfortunate because the casting for him was so good.
  • Warm and Cozy
    • Really cute little drama, except the acting from the annoying girl needs A LOT OF WORK. I'm not sure if she is purposely talking like that or not, but it just looks like she cannot act. Otherwise, it is a very cute drama and also very scenic because it is shot in Jeju Island... sigh I want to go there again.. hahaha
  • Falling for Innocence
    • I was watching this.. and I actually really liked it, but about halfway through it started getting very corporate and boring.. and also it has been pushed to the back for me since all the new dramas (listed above) are so much more interesting LOL
  • The Lover
    • Funny adult drama, watched it when I had nothing else to watch but don't really like it enough to keep up to date
David has also finished his placements, and has gone back to Geelong, so I won't be able to see him for at least 2 weeks :( Hopefully we can eat in the city when he has his last exam, but he says he will be staying in Geelong for maybe a few weeks after in case he has to re-sit the exam. I am sad because I am so used to seeing him almost everyday with him taking me to and from work, and also now I will have to get to work myself :( 

Trip in August
I have also been planning my trip with David to HK/Korea in August. Mostly I have to plan Hong Kong since I am mainly in charge of that. I am a bit worried with having to possibly speak Cantonese, and especially reading menus at restaurants, but hopefully it will be okay. I mean heaps of expats live in HK, should be fine HAHAHA (as usual worrying over nothing).

It looked like our time in HK will be packed considering we want to head to Macau for one of the days. We will only have 2 days in HK really, and there's a lot I want to do. I am most excited for the flower markets, gold fish markets and also bird garden. Also a few cafes I want to check out!

Korea planning is pretty good considering I have been to most of the places I want to go to. Plus it is less stress for me because David will be there with me and he can speak the language and translate everything. Also I cannot wait to buy all the clothes and makeup and stationery that I want in Korea!!!! I feel like fashion and also design are so 'up there' in Korea.. it's really my taste LOL I also cannot wait to have some yummy Korean food (since it is my favourite cuisine).

Since we are going to be in Korea for quite a while this time and it is my second time there (and I can do EVERYTHING I WANT), that means next time we go overseas we will have to go somewhere new. I am hoping to maybe go to Japan and Taiwan, and if I enjoy Hong Kong we can go there for a bit again as well.

Weoowww I am really excited for my trip. I hope I can take a lot of awesome photos!!! (and also enjoy myself LOL.. although I think I will be tired as heck T.T)

I should try to update the blog more often. I'm just being lazy :(

I also bought a new lens recently, the Fujinon 35mm f1.4. I haven't taken it out to use so far, but it seems good (I have tried it around in my room). I like that it has a wide aperture, so there's less focus in the background, but the thing for me about prime lenses is that I hate the fixed focal length HAHAHAHA, mostly because my arms are short LOL I'm probably going to bring it overseas???? Since it is quite small and light anyway. But not sure if I will pull it out hahhah

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Thursday, May 21, 2015
9:00 PM
i'm tired of working,
and i'm also tired of relying on others.

i'm tired as fuck.
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Friday, May 15, 2015
6:01 PM
On Monday I had my graduation ceremony. Some bad things had soured my mood so I wasn't really happy that day. My photos aren't too good either because I am not smiling properly in them. I am sad.

I am happy that it didn't rain and that lots of my friends came for me. Jess even took work off. I also got lots of flowers. I'm very happy.

The ceremony was boring. I yawned many times. My feet were dying because my heels were so high. Dinner was at Petaling Street. I had ckt, it is so bad compared to Straits Cafe.

On Thursday it was Michaels graduation. David and I bought flowers at the store in the shopping centre before we headed straight to the university.

We got him some pink flowers Hahaah he said "why pink?!" I helped him take a few photos and then we left to eat dinner at Hudadak whilst Michael and his family had the ceremony.

It was my first time at Hudadak. The chicken is very fresh and tastes nice but everything else is average. The ddeokbokki is runny and army stew was quite small. Overall the meal was okay.

Korean is my favourite cuisine, and even if it tastes somewhat bad, I think "how bad can it be?" Because I love Korean food. I am very hungry right now. I am on the bus on the way home from work.

Today I had work. I did a lot of different things. I sat in the room with Y to complete a worksheet before I go on another training. It was very interesting to see him at work, and it's been a long while since I have been to the optometrist myself lol. I have realised I am very bad at articulating what I want to say with speech. Most of the time my coworkers find it hard to understand what it is tha I am saying and not only that my voice is soft. I should improve.

I'm really hungry. Fuck.

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Wednesday, May 6, 2015
8:00 AM
Wow. My whole post I typed up just disappeared. Annoying.

Anyway, I started a new drama on Sunday called "school 2015: who are you?" It is very interesting so far and the main guy is really good looking *v*

Went out for dinner with David. We ate at Toodouri even though we were initially going to try Hallah which is next door. The reason we didn't go to Hallah is because it had a somewhat low rating on urban spoon not only that but apparently they charge for kimchi.. So f that.

Toodouri is very authentic looking and has a pretty nice atmosphere. We got 2 meats and one cold noodle. We got galbisal (boneless beef rib) and deung shim (beef scotch fillet). The galbisal was damn delicious, unfortunately we were eating too much and forgot about flipping the deung shim so it ended up being overlooked and tasted like beef patty from maccas kind of. 

Naengmyun kind of tastes like packet but it wasn't that bad. I thought it tasted very bad but I realised its because David put it into my own separate bowl which wasn't chilled leading the noodles to become a bit warmer. But when I ate the last bits from the original bowl it tasted pretty okay.

After that we watched Avengers in Century City. It was very long and kind of boring - I mean it wasn't bad but the first movie was better. There were a lot of references I didn't really get since I haven't watched all the movies and also a lot of fighting and not much story I don't know. 

Anyway that is it. I am on the bus right now. I'm so tired.

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Friday, May 1, 2015
5:23 PM
Today is the first of May. I cannot believe how incredibly fast this year has gone by. In less than 2 weeks I will be officially graduating. I still have no graduate position and am doing nothing related to my university course at all. I missed all the deadlines to apply for grad positions for next year and I'm just working as an optical assistant.

Some people say I am working a "part time job" full time, some tell me to keep trying to find something in the field I studied, some don't give a crap and some are proud. I, myself, have not really been trying to find anything else. I feel like right now I just started and I am entering a new world and a new industry with new jargon and new everything. It is interesting to learn but at the same time, tiring. I am satisfied with this for now. Maybe I will aim higher when I feel like I have learnt enough. I can feel people judging me, but who gives a crap - at least it's not completely irrelevant when I plan on spending my life with an optometrist Hahahah.

Getting a job after graduating from uni is really hard - especially when you did no volunteering, extra curricular activities or internships. A lot of courses which have placements are really good and I kind of envy it but what can you do hahaha. Some people are still looking, others are working in sales and just finding whatever they can - just like me. Although my salary will not even be close to the average Australian maybe one day it will be Hahahaha.

Anyway I wanted to write this post because I felt like I sold a lot of glasses today and I learnt quite a bit. I feel like I am slowly progressing and although I wasn't able to check my sales because I completely forgot I think it would be pretty high. Also today was the first time I was really ceebs at work. I was totally like impatient and just like "fuarkkkkk ceeeeeebssssss can I get this over and done with???" Hahahaha so bad. Maybe I was just tired.

Also yesterday I went to Piatella with David for dinner. He had beef ragu and I had wild mushroom risotto. The beef ragu was overpriced and the portions were so small! My risotto was way too runny.. Such a disappointment!

These days restaurants have been seriously disappointing me!! Like last week David and I went to Su:t and Wine which is a Korean restaurant in Box Hill. If you have followed me blog for ages you might know that this restaurant serves my favourite Korean cold noodles (mool naengmyun). I have no idea why but this time when I went they changed it!!! The noodles are no good and the bowl is smaller. They cut the cucumber so bad - it's kind of soggy and soft and looks like it ha been cut up days before! Ugh! Even the al bab which is essentially fish roe bibimbap in a stone pot was.. Not very good. The stone pot was not hot enough or something because there was no yummy crispy bit around the bowl.. It was kind of just sloppy,,, disappointing!!! I guess the naengmyun still tastes OK though.. Because the soup still kind of tastes the same but nonetheless I will now have second thoughts about going there. But there are not many other options... Until we find another good naengmyun place :(:(:(:( 

Also I have been wanting to learn more about photography recently. I realised I have a pretty bad mindset. I am lazy and have not even bothered to learn much about photography and about my own cameras that I own. I mostly leave them on the automatic settings and with processing I am lazy and hardly adjust anything after putting particular presets on... Eugh I wish I was pro Haahha but I guess pros put a lot of time and effort into their works and learn about all the stuff. I'm constantly thinking that if I just buy the equipment my photos will look amazing - which actually might be the case but I also know that it is also possible to take amazing photos with what I already have. I mean people use their iPhone 6 and take fresking awesome photos - it's not about the equipment but about the photographer. I want to be like that.

I feel like I'm just so mediocre at everything. I'm like 65% at everything. Just a bit better than average at like everything. I'm not terrible but I'm not freaking amazing at anything. Graphics, photography, languages, studies, everything.

Ok, that it all. 

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